Hello dear reader, I realized it has been a long time since I wrote in this blog. (reader count:0) I guess this is a safe place to write. But this is the internet and nothing is safe in the internet haha.
Anyway, there are so many things that happened from the last time I wrote in this blog. I met someone from the past and we went full circle with what happened. I finally was given the closure I needed from my first love. It was really not meant to be, not because I am not willing to make it work, but because we are two different people and I am not loved enough to make it last.
I am also able to go up the career ladder, something that I was not able to achieve in my previous employment due to office politics. I must admit I doubted my self and my self work in my previous employment. That place made me feel like I am not capable. I am grateful I got into a better work place - I achieved milestones, sat in Boards like I used to, and won cases.
I have moved.
I moved residence now. It is supposed to last for a period of 2 years. I am also taking my post graduate studies. I am in a new place with people I have started to get to know, with limited new experience. There are times when I succumb to my fear of not having enough but the Lord has been faithful in providing for me despite my fears.
I still don't have job in this new place to tide me over the monthly expenses of living here but I am positive that one day I will be having a remote job where I can do work and earn well while I balance my post graduate studies.
I must admit that I did not intended to be here. I am happy and contented where I was. I have debts, a stressful work schedule, but I am happy with what I was doing. Now, I am in a new environment, my debts are still there, my stress is lesser because I have more time to myself and to my interests - I write regularly on LinkedIn on topics I was exploring for my thesis - and I am hopeful about my options in this new place. I found myself in a new place, sometimes missing home, growing and experiencing growing pains but I have also learned to love what is happening to me.
I admit that when I was younger, one of my what ifs is doing this. I did not take it seriously, but now I am here.
And this a wonderful experience I am in right now.
So yeah, despite everything, my feelings of unease, doubt, fear, longing for connection, and occasional hunger, this is the best that has happened to me. And I believe that more wonderful things are coming my way.
